Monday, April 27, 2015

What I was thinking when I married Tom

What I was thinking when I married Tom

          I was thinking that I wanted something immediately. I loved Jay more than words could ever describe, but he had to leave. I sometimes I wondering whether or not I should have waited though.  The night of your wedding is supposed to be fun and celebratory. On my wedding night I drank myself into oblivion to try and help ignore the fact that the man I married was in fact not Jay Gatsby. Jay however, couldn’t support me financially and he had to leave. I needed something more than a promise and that’s all Jay could give me at the time. Sometimes I try to avoid any thought of Jay in fear that I will hate myself for not waiting for him.

I ask myself a lot what I was thinking when I married Tom. I keep looking for a complicated, deep, reasonable, justifiable conclusion aside from the fact that he was wealthy. However, whenever I do dare e to ask myself what I was thinking when I married Tom, I end up coming to one very simple answer. I was thinking that he wasn’t Jay Gatsby. 

1 comment:

  1. Dear Daisy,

    We were in love. You can't honestly say there were no feelings between us. I have not only showered you with wealth, but been a true gentleman and good husband. You are suspicious of the calls I have been getting from some friends. They are just friends and nobody will ever be as good as you.

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